Putting My Faith 1st

For the first time I am putting my faith first! When I say first I mean first as in number 1

In the past I have said faith comes first but looking back it seemed as if I was putting my faith to the test! Telling God:
God this week I will be good. I will pray more often, read the bible more often and in return God please give me that job I applied for, please allow this loan to go through, please make this guy like me!!!!......That was me putting my faith to the test because when the above and many other things I prayed for did not happen I would then slip right back into my old ways of complaining, being miserable and feeling frustrated which led me to give up and turn away from God. However, I did not turn away from God completely. I love God I really do from the bottom of my heart! But when I say turn away I meant I didn't persevere or press on in my faith and trust God even when things went wrong or did not go my way, and now looking back I have realized...

.....I have been doing this on and off for the past 13 years!!!

Growing up in a christian/catholic household knowing of God ''our father in Heaven'' was ingrained in me as a child. I remember my mother dressing us up for church every Sunday I also attended a roman catholic school where we recited the lords prayer every morning and every other Sunday we would attend a more cultural church from my country of origin which reflected more of a Pentecostal way of worshiping. So knowing there is a God a father in heaven who looks down on us, loves us unconditionally and sacrificed his only son Jesus Christ to wash away all our sins...was very comforting! And I would pray, I would thank God for the world, ask him to feed the poor children in the world and one prayer that I remember reciting often was that God would make it rain in countries suffering from drought so that people there could grow crops and not go hungry. So yes I have loved God from ever since I can remember and I thank my mum for being consistent in this area of our upbringing and I pray that God will bless her greatly just for doing that.

So...when I turned 16 we stopped going to these loud Pentecostal churches and also stopped attending the boring catholic churches where I fell asleep during service. My mum would still go and at times drag my siblings and I during special occasions like Easter and Christmas. Then something changed she started to attend a different church which was closer to our home, a church that I remember walking past everyday not knowing it was a church because all I saw was second hand clothes being dumped outside its doors.....Well when we started attending with my mum that's when I realized it was the Salvation Army and it is here that I really really began to fall in love with Jesus Christ!

....So I could say my journey to know Christ even better and to live more of a christian life began when I started attending the Salvation Army, Thanks to my mum and of course God who somehow led my mum there!....

This is where I fell in love with Jesus, I wanted to know more of Jesus, I wanted him in my heart and most importantly I wanted to be guided by him. I wasn't saved at that time and didn't even know what being saved was... but I just loved worshiping God! Listening to the preaching which were taught in a practical way in different forms not only standing from a pupil preaching but also in form of theatrical plays to biblical arts displayed across the church hall. 

I felt more engaged and for the first time I was excited about going to church every Sunday, seriously at 16 when others my age would rather sleep-in on a Sunday morning or go shopping I would get up early just to go to church to hear the word of God and when service was done I felt so uplifted and happy...then I would go shopping and hang out with my friends knowing that the holy spirit was is in me (that was and still is a special feeling). 

And now.. at 28 years old, a wife.. a mother, I am still not where I want to be in my christian journey. Up until recently I was still complaining, feeling miserable and getting frustrated when things were not going right or MY WAY!!....Not knowing that maybe it's not my way that I should be concentrating on but GOD'S WAY!!....Its funny because as a christian and someone who  loves Jesus Christ you would think I should know this right?... Well I do or did know it but putting it into practice was what I was battling with..
And now looking back the past 13 years I have seen a pattern, and to say the least its about time I put a stop to it and start correcting the problem!

Steps I took to trust God 100%

1).  I Stopped worrying about things I have absolute no control over!

Example: Waiting for a desicon i.e job offer, immagration, rental application, waiting for that person in your life to change, waiting for your circumstances to change!

Examples as above and many others you cannot control are not worth the worry or stress. Worrying separates us from God as we start to focus on ourselves and our inability rather than focusing on God and his absolute abilities.

If this is you.. like me start by putting your focus on God through constant acts of faith, prayer and trust.. This way we will learn to not let measures out of our hands bother us to the point where we lose ourselves to problems which we cannot control, as this will lead to a miserable, frustrated unhappy life... Question: How can you be reflecting Gods likeness in this state?

Learn to lean on him patiently particularly in times of trouble...

2.) I Cleansed my mind off negative thoughts

I'm going to start this point with a verse from Romans 12:2 "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect"

We all know the saying "where the mind goes, the man follows" well that is true! It's a simple equation.. if you think bad  thoughts you won't do good.. if you think good thoughts you won't do bad..

Also remember the devil is hard at work trying to destroy your mind, and by focusing on negative thoughts you are fulfilling the will of the devil rather than the will of God.

If this is you.. I urge you to lead your mind towards positive thinking by rebuking negative thoughts about you/your life.. This is a constant process, so remind yourself daily that your mind was created as a tool to purposely fulfill God's good and perfect will... not the devil's.

The day I started to renew my mind was the day I allowed the word of God to properly and effectively influence my thoughts daily.

These are the two main starting points that helped me get over me.. and unto Jesus..

There are more points to come, This I will blog in another post tilted ''Trusting God 100%''

Until then keep loving God, others and yourself!

Amani babs :)