A year to reflect

It has been a whole year since I last blogged and so much has happened. I gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl, my family moved (again) to the other side of the country and life has been super hectic to the point where I thought I'd lose my mind! But thankfully everything is now falling into place and looking back there have been a lot of things that I let go of such as: my phone and social media which surprisingly gave me back self control which also resulted to me being more focused and concerned about what is happening on the inside of my life rather than what is going on, on the outside.

The point I am trying to make is, deleting my social media accounts gave me a sense of freedom that I lost due to over-posting, over scrolling and simply spending to much time in boredom looking at photos of how other people live their lives.

I wouldn't say I was addicted to my social media accounts, but for some reason, especially if I was sitting down watching TV or just laying in bed, I would be on my phone just scrolling, looking and liking pictures, reading post of quotes, agreeing with them but never applying them to my life to the point where I would feel a bit depressed about my life, especially when we moved (I hated our new city but I now love it) and wishing I could be living my life like everybody else on social media which was happy, travelling, meeting up with friends, shopping, and being the mom who can bake anything! I am so glad I do not feel that way any more. It took a long time after deleting my social media accounts to stop feeling that way because then it became a mental thing, as I have very good visualisation memory, I would always look back and wonder and think I wonder how he or she is doing, to the point where I had to ask myself.. who cares?

Some may read this and say, well that is you and not everybody is like that. But you don't notice it as a problem until you don't have access to it anymore, because it just becomes part of your life, and some have more control than others. For me it became part of my life, the excitement of sharing your life in pictures and receiving positive comments made me feel good, also sharing my knowledge on matters close to my heart and having people agreeing also made me feel good, so I guess it was not that bad however it came to the point where I became uncomfortable with constantly sharing my life and constantly receiving information in forms of pictures just for likes and comments, to the point where my mind was so bogged with useless information that space for creative thinking was limited.

Today I am happy to say, after 9 months of not posting on instagram, 5 months after deleting my Facebook and twitter accounts, I no longer feel the need or urge to post anything on social media and if I do decide to it is because I want to share moments that mean something to me, rather than posting every single moment everyday or every other day.

Anyways this was my experience with social media, I will be writing more post about this topic and how I weaned my self away from it whilst regaining self control and enjoying life without feeling the need to share it all the time.

I would love to know your thoughts and experiences on social media habits? Please share them in the comments below